Change

So things are changing.... a lot and I wish it was easier to let it happen. I know change can be good but all of it is scary. I went from dating my best friend and going to a local community college and working at kmart to breaking my best friends heart, dropping out, and getting fired. I am now dating someone who turned out to be the best person ever for me. Not working. And contemplating seriously about going to the paragon school for dog grooming which could be fun but it is all so intimidating. I am 20 years old and it is still so difficult to accept growing up. I have to make so many decisions that will pretty  much make up my entire future. This is all giving me a head ache.... which brings me to another horrible thing about growing up. I am on so much medication for migraines that I can't even keep track of which drugs is causing which symptoms. I am dizzy and nauseous almost always and my headaches haven't changed at all. Also, all of my friends are drifting apart which I honestly saw coming for a while now and I am ok with it. Its just how life usually works out! Its rare for people to stay friends when they have their own lives and problems to deal with. It isnt a bad thing either, its natural and shouldn't be too hard for us to deal with but as usual the Schoenborns are being overly dramatic. I am going to sleep now cuz this is straining my eyes and I would rather not wake up in the morning with a migraine.