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Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Let it be
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
I have the power to be happy
I dont know why, but i always end up focusing on all the bad things in my life. Ive kinda been known for my mood swing and anger issues...but im getting sick of it. I dont want to be known for my hate anymore. My amazing boyfriend has brought a light in my world that is showing me...that i dont have tonhateneveryone! Omg! What?! So..... There it is. It isnt exactly easy though.. I still see life as pointless. Which makes keeping my relationship very difficult... But in the end..i need to remember that its worth it. He treats me like a princess, yeah he may not fully understand me at times and he may frustrate me...but he loves me. He really does. I know that he does. I can work on things with him because he makes me so happy. Going a day without seeing him is almost torturous... Most of our problems could be solved if i could just calm down... But thats where he doesnt understand how near impossible that seems for me. I just need to remember that. I also need to get another job. I love my job but i am just not getting enough hours! If i had something to distract me more i think i wouldnt put so much importance on seeing my bf as much as possible. That will be tested this weekend when i have to work saturday and he doesn't.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
"Friends"
What is the point? Joy? Having others in your life to care about? Well then i may need to redefine what i call friends. My friends fill my life with drama and sadness. The last time i was happy while with them was a long long time ago. Lately my "closest" friend, rebekah, has found herself in love with someone who barely likes her back... At least in public. I always feel so bad for her when i see them together..like shes the one working so hard to keep it looking like a ralationship.
Now, my boyfriend cant live without his friends! He literally needs them as if theyre a life source for him. This obviously confuses me, not only because i couldnt care less aboout my "friends" but also because his friends are all retarded and treat him like crap! They all have their own lives. They like him around because hes a wonderful and generous person. But they, for the most part, misuse him and i hate them for it.